Hohokam Power Spot

A beautiful power spot that touched my heart, with so much love from Mother Earth, the energy was gentle and elevating, yet deep and embracing at the same time.

There were seven petroglyphs carved in the stone.  When I first saw them, I knew I were to touch each one of them to receive a message but I will need a question deep enough to unlock it.

This day I came with two questions in my mind, I wanted to know more about emotions as I get overwhelmed easily under stress and also why it was so hard for me to feel a sense of self-worth.  I knew that the messages were waiting for me. I also knew that the geometries I received from module one will help me understand the messages.

I put my hand on the first petroglyph that I was drawn to, with the question about emotion in my mind.  A message came to me, “Emotions carry weight but they are like the water current and the boulders in it that have the power to carve out a canyon if we just let it flow. We can hold more when we have a deeper container, that is compassion — we have the same feelings in us for what others go through.  However, to really be able to hold it all, ultimately we have to break the container.  Break it because emotions, especially negative ones are just temporary pointers that tell us we are moving away from the center of our heart.  Once we get the message, we can let the messenger leave, that is emptiness.  Without the weight, our heart naturally returns to the center, and it becomes a doorway into the next density.

For the second petroglyph, I asked about self-worth. As I put my hand on it, a doorway of an ancient temple appeared in my mind.  I stepped into it, it led to another space-time, now I saw a vast landscape in front of me. It appeared to be a time when humans were more primitive and integrated with nature.  The message I got was, “We have lost our intrinsic feeling of worthiness because we have lost our ability to hear the heartbeat of Mother Earth.  Every creature and element in nature has an intrinsic sense of value because they share the same heartbeat as Mother Earth. When we find that heartbeat back again, we will evolve into a true human collective.  At that point, sensation will be a lot more than just the feelings we get from our emotions.  Sensation from the heart is how we all get connected, and that will be telempathy.

For the third petroglyph, I came with an empty mind, I didn't expect to get an answer, I put my hand on it, thanking Mother Earth and being with the energy.  A message came to me, "Becoming that which you seek, as there won't be something out there that can complete what is missing within.  The sense of lack is signaling there is something to uncover or to grow within us.  At the same time always know that the completed version already exist, so don't feel incomplete, but take the time to get there and have fun on the way... Linear time is a luxury that you can only find in this dimension, why not enjoy it!"

When I understood my intrinsic value, I saw that it was me who took away my own sense of self-worth. I am my own tyrant.  I might fight a tyrant outside, but each and every time I denied myself, I was letting the tyrant voice within hurting myself.  It’s not that I didn’t hear it, I obviously did and allowed it, because I was seeing that as truth! Yet I get emotional and defensive when that same belief manifested as someone outside shouting the same thing to me, only in a way to reflect back to me how I had treated myself inside.. I fought the messenger as I didn’t see the tyrant inside...only to create a stronger sense of victimhood.. 

When I turn inward, I see that I don’t have to play this game any longer, I don’t have to fight my inner tyrant just like I don’t have to fight my external tyrant. They were messenger ever shouting so loud “SEE YOUR OWN VALUES, we were trying so hard to show them to you but because you didn’t believe in yourself, all the positive cues didn’t work, we had no choice but to use a stronger voice, one that inflicted a stronger emotions, but also pain.” 

When I finally see my own values, all the inner voices took their costumes off and smiled at me, “thanks for finally freeing us from playing the negative roles!!!”.  There are so much love and so much patience in this cosmic play, only to awaken us into our inner truth!

Dancing in the void

From Lyssa’s book, Millennium: 

“Patience, waiting and stillness are ancient ideas within Eastern mysticism that represent a state of being rather than an empty void.  The Western world sees waiting as a void, which causes much stress and tension. Perhaps you have seen Eastern masters sit for long periods in meditation.  One might think, “My goodness, how can they do this?” They can do it because they are not waiting for a void within them to be filled.  They are instead dancing in the void.” p 101

I really like the idea of “dancing in the void” I find it hard to find that stillness within if I have to force my mind to be still, just like I couldn’t keep my bicycle upright if I am not riding it in motion.  From today’s class, I learn to observe the motion of my mind in stillness, when I also allow myself to dance in it, it becomes something that is so enjoyable rather than a struggle.  I dance through the compartments of my mind,  the other aspects of my ego (parent,tyrant,controller,victim)  watched in awe and wanted to join, as that is much more fun than creating stories :)

Channeling Class

Phoenix April 19, my ego was unsure but curious, my soul was excited for the next adventure.

Lyssa is a wonderful teacher.  The first module was about self care, so that we could have a good vehicle for channeling, and also about self love, and shadow integration, so that we could be a clear channel.

I really like the analogy that when we channel, the ego moves to the back seat, and the higher self or the guides come forward to be the driver.  I realize this is something I could do in everyday life too, ego will go along the ride to learn, but allows the higher self to lead and let go of control.

Meditation is another breakthrough for me, it used to be boring to me, but Lyssa allowed me to see how it could be a space for me to spend some quality time with my own being.  It becomes effortless when I see that.

My deepest lesson is realizing that our ability to channel is directly related to how much love we allow ourselves to receive from higher guidance and the universe and how much love we could give, as to me information is love translated into words that the intellectual mind could understand, and love is a higher vibration that embrace all. Knowing this took away all my fear about channeling.

I don’t know where we are heading next in module II and III but now my ego is excited to let the higher self drive!