追尋

走長長的路

去尋找一個完整的自己

卻一直沒有

完完整整的

接受過現在的自己

長路是好的

追尋也不是問題

只是

接受了多少的自己

才帶了多少的自己上路

否則

即便找到了

自己也不在

沒有

"為什麼要有那個有力量的,那個很強的自己,那裡面一定有一個很深的沒有,或者是被否定,很深的匱乏的自己,才會拉出那個很強烈要有的自己" ~ 簡湘庭

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O9oaSkMtGk8&feature=em-subs_digest

湘庭老師的這句話讓我呆了很久
我想它觸碰到了我心中那個匱乏的自己
給自己一個空間
接受了那個自己
我開始明白沒有好壞
一切皆是進化的旅程

空性與獨特性

聽著巴夏的錄音 讀著奧修的文字

它們迥然不同

西方一再強調個人的獨特性

東方則在空性裡融解了自我

走了一圈

我的本性還是空的

我喜歡空無裡的遼闊

我不喜歡突出的焦點

當我很努力去尋找自己的時候

我比任何時候都迷失

西方的個人性

畢竟不是我的家

放下個人性，回家了

卻也發現自己是

獨特的

The light

In myriad of ways
we distracted ourselves countlessly
by looking outside
to find something that would support us
only to find it collapsing away
like the tall waves that come ashore
disappearing as it get close

Until one day we realized that
we searched externally when we denied ourselves
Every time we searched for a solution externally
there was an aspect of us that we denied
an aspect that we did not value
an aspect that we did not see

so many fragments within us
so dearly wanting to be accepted
so dearly wanting to be valued
so dearly wanting to be seen

so when we search externally for that recognition
for something that we couldn't even give to ourselves
but long for someone else to fulfill
that was an endless game that the ego played

It becomes simple when we turn around and realize
we can just be the love that we need
for it seals the holes that leak the light
for it make the light within shine with joy
as it is finally seen
and no one can take it away
and all other lights dance with it in delight