評斷

發現自己對一件事情的評斷

還是那麼不假思索的跳出來

在跳出來的速度裏

又看見自己的自我覺察力

是那麼的慢了許多拍

發現在跳出來的評斷裏

假如有能力在前面加上「它給我的感受是。。。」

覺察力就能比較同步一些

至少自我意識會知道

那僅是我的感受而已

是一個面向

不是一個真相

Self and Soul

關於靈魂與自我的關係
讀了Almaas的這一段話後
感覺清晰了：
 

As we understand it, the soul is not separate from what is normally understood as the self, and in fact includes the normal self and its conventional or superficial levels of experience as well as its pure and perfect spiritual ground.

In contemporary life, rather than conceiving human beings as fundamentally souls, we conceive of them as what we now call self, and this conventional sense of self is one that is normally not so much in contact with its soul, that is a self alienated from the soul's inner richness and spiritual depth. The ancient Greek philosophers would have considered such a self to be an alienated or spiritually depraved and unregenerate soul. In our times, the expression we normally use to refer to ourselves, self, refers in actuality to self without reference to soul, without an assumption of spiritual nature.

~ A.H. Almaas

The Inner Journey Home - Soul's Realization of the Unity of Reality

靈魂的旅程

讀完Journey of the souls感觸很深

社會集體投射的對成就的定義

與遺忘的面紗背後

靈魂所尋之路

是這麼的大相徑庭

這是為什麼呢？

好像我們一輩子都在走一條反向的路

去尋找一個朦朧的意義

記憶裏意義是存在的

在真實裏卻是模糊的

這是因為領悟必須是親自走過的

才是自己的嗎

兩個我

關於做自己

其實還是常常讓我迷惑

這個我到底是本位主義

一切以自我為中心的我

還是放下了自我的思想之後

靈魂的真我

它們的關係是什麼？

追求開悟

最近在想

為什麼人們想追求開悟

是希望能解除生命中的一些苦痛嗎

是希望自己變得不平凡嗎

還是希望能更了解這個世界的運作

也更了解自己

明心見性

漸漸了解

生命中的苦痛是來讓自己轉彎的

轉個彎以在同樣的情境下

痛不再苦

至於不平凡多半是自我意識要的

靈魂會希望成為如是的自己

明心見性更是一個不斷覺察的過程

不是一個終點

漸漸清楚

許多東西之所以遙不可及

是因為自己以各種理由

靜不下心來

在當下落實

開悟不是重點

更不是終點

而比較像是思想的執著

關係

讀著Journey of the Souls

Dr. Michael Newton回溯了上千個案之後

整理出來的一本書

除了轉世，更著重在轉世之間（Life between life) 靈魂的學習

也描述了指導靈與靈魂的關係

讀著彷彿是靈魂永生的真實經驗版

這是正讀到的一段：

The lesson we must learn from human relationships is accepting people for who they are without expecting our happiness to be totally dependent upon anyone. I have had clients come to me with the assumption that they are probably not with a soulmate because of so much turmoil and heartbreak in their marriages and relationships.  They failed to realize that karmic lessons set difficult standards for each of us and painful experiences involving the heart are deliberate tests in life.  They are often the hardest kind.

Helping

No one really needs help, but in helping others we become the light that we are...

~ Mark

So who is really helping who?

Presence and our parallel selves

Mark started the session by bringing us back to the core of our being.  His own presence filtered through the air like the warm rising sun, calming and settling my running thoughts.  I brought myself back to the open meadow where all is quiet and still, and just be there with myself. In the stillness, Mark said to feel the essence and the wholeness of our core being and be with it. 

From the core of our being, Mark now wanted us to experience our parallel selves.  He used an analogy of the pasta machine to describe the relationship between our core self and our parallel selves. If we thought of our core self as the dough, the parallel selves were the individual pasta strands coming out of the pasta machine, each strand was independent, yet part of the same dough.

When I went deeper, the pasta machine turned into a cave on a cliff, with multiple openings on the side. The pasta strands became stands of light in different colors extruding from the openings into the sky. Each light strand had a different color, representing a unique vibration level for each parallel self, together they formed a rainbow. Slowly the cave disappeared, the rainbow of light strands now formed a circle radiating outward like a sun disc on the horizontal plane, with each light strand extending infinitely along its own time dimension.

Mark let us experienced each parallel life, my mind played back some of the lives I've seen in regressions, then I drifted into the galaxy, I saw my parallel selves exploring simultaneously in various space time of the universe. Mark then said to bring back the experience of all parallel selves and fed them back to the core.  I saw the color of lights flowed back to the center disc, the rainbow of colors mixed, and the resulting white light flowed back to each individual strand, and they raised together vertically. Mark wanted us to feel the richness, strength, and wisdom that we gained from all of these selves, that we were never separated.

As I go deeper to feel the wholeness, each individual strands began to transform, they morphed into individual tiles that popped up in the air, slowly they came together and formed a sphere with many facets, just like a disco light with all the mirror tiles. I began to understand that each of our incarnation, each of our parallel life represent a facet of the whole. Each may seem limited, but each allowed us to explore, experience, and understand a particular facet to the fullest.  However when we became more aware, we need not be limited to the particular facet or personality anymore.  We could experience the specific while knowing the whole, and be supported and nourished by our larger self.  As I continued to understand more, the disco light turned into a big diamond, with more intricate facets and dimensions forming and expanding.  The diamond was our core self, the lights it projected out had formed the galaxy I was exploring in, and the experience from the explorations in turn created more intricate facets in the diamond. How beautiful it is that we all have a diamond in our core, in our heart.

I have always wanted to ask Mark, what he does when he is not talking to us, what his life looks like in the dimension he is in. Mark apparently answered my question in the second part of the session.  He said now imagine another pasta machine that produce the parallel selves of the guides, masters, angels, enlightened beings, etc. Imagine them overlapping with our parallel selves, each of them are sent out by their core self to guide, teach, and help us, and in the process, they evolved and expanded too. Mark also asked us to see ourselves coming out of this second pasta machine of light.  In the infinite parallel realities, there is indeed a parallel self of us that is at that vibrational level, and in reality we are the same!  We are of the same dough just a different strand.  The connection is powerful, and I felt that our consciousness had all expanded in this exercise.

雪花

下了四天雪

空氣冷冷的

雪花漫天在空中飛舞

也層層覆蓋在大地上

冷與靜

為什麼總是掛在一起呢

不過冷的時候

心就是只想

靜靜的

聽著

Meaningless

Living a meaningful life has always been what I thought I want, but knowing all things "meaningless" has a space actually completed it.

Meaning

從小我便一直在尋找意義

好像有意義是

天經地意的必須

去尋找也好

去創造也好

反正終點就是

要有意義

後來我才發現

意義是屬於頭腦的

意義只是意識聚集的

某一個方式

某一個圖案

某一個形態

所以

感覺無意義時

何不就給它一個空間

讓意識自由的來告訴我們

它的故事

它的組合

它的創意

放下有意義的必須

忽然就覺得輕鬆很多了

生命的存在

是一個比頭腦能想像的

更有趣的遊戲

黑暗

我經歷過最深的黑暗是
當我徹底否定了靈性
否定了自己存在的價值
並且在由此創造的外在的別人的否定裡
去肯定了這些否定的合理性
在黑暗的谷底
我徹底瓦解了

當我嘗試撿起散裂的碎片時
我不停的問
我能去愛一個完全沒有價值的自己嗎
然後我發現不是值得被愛

才能被愛
而是拋開所有的值得與否
單純的去愛

那一刻
我才看見了
所有的「值得與否」像一根根的刺
把心刺得傷痕累累了
於是它再也沒有了接受光的能力與容量
這些刺是雙面刃
往內刺也往外刺
刺傷自己也刺傷他人
它會讓我用相同的標準去評斷他人

那就一根一根的刺去拔掉吧
每拔掉一根刺
就是一點療癒
心對光的容量就大一些了
我也開始在從前的每一個無價值裡
看見簡單溫暖的愛與價值

真實的黑暗只是空性
讓黑暗變得扭曲而刺痛的
卻是
那一根根的刺

當心不再受傷了
才有了容納光的空間
最深的黑暗
是宇宙最深的慈悲
讓我看見了黑暗的源起
與光的容器

Destruction and new order

I attended my second Jonette's class two months ago where she channelled Mark who led us to the 9th dimension.

The exercise that week was about destruction.  Mark gave an analogy of a jig saw puzzle.  Every time we took the pieces apart, we always put them back in the same way.  He challenged us to break the puzzle apart and put them back in a brand new order.

The exercise started with sensing and feeling the attractors and stimulants that interest us.  In my mind eye, the attractors were like flight path guiding lights that spread randomly across the universe, flashing at times. I expanded and extended myself like an amoeba to reach out and touched them while feeling every sensation, probability and complexity of the universe that was out there.

Mark then asked us to multiply ourselves like fractals, and to expand even deeper and further into the universe and the multiverse.  

At the peak of it the tone changed, Mark now wanted us to bring in chaos, destruction, and demolished everything that was there.  In the flow, I felt that I was in a gigantic whirlpool, I lost my bearings, didn't know where I was.  I was broken apart, spun around, and disintegrated.  The universe was as chaotic as can be. I felt meaningless itself.

After a while the chaos gradually receded.  As the dust settled, it gave way to a calm and peaceful feeling, a new awareness emerged and a brand new order was created.  I sensed the cleanliness of the universe, like standing under a clear night sky right after the rain was over, there was freshness and clarity. I felt that the bonds between molecules and atoms were broken up in the chaos, form became formless, consciousness that was locked within the form was freed.  That was where the new awareness arose from.  In the rising, I saw the bonds between consciousness units, between atoms and molecules re-formed again, this time forming crystals that extended beyond the universe, it was truly magnificent and beautiful.  

I realized meaning is structured, but for new meaning to arise, the old structure that has shaped and contained it has to be demolished.

Mark said to bring the awareness and vibration from the higher dimension back to the lower dimension and integrate it into our daily life, but what does that mean?

In my personal truth it means breaking the usual habitual patterns of thoughts, emotions, and reactions; breaking the usual way I see people, things, and events; breaking the limitation I set for myself, and start forming the new pattern of thoughts, emotions, reactions; new ways to see people, things, and events, having new dreams, and go beyond limits to define the new meaning of life for myself.

The experience is like the shamanic tunnel, where you go through, meet your soul and see your new self.

火車

在火車上

我漸漸喜歡坐在

背著行駛方向的座位

喜歡看著窗外景物

輕輕滑過

緩緩遠去

看不見前方

但是對於走過的路

卻有了更多回顧的時間

心 也更任由生命以它的方式

帶著我前進

生活

今天在家裡工作
早上起來弄了鬆餅給孩子們當早餐
然後送Aspen上學

Wesley今天學校休假留在家裡
回家工作了一個多小時
孩子忽然喊著媽媽妳一定要下來看
滿腦子還是工作的事
但心裡想就暫停一下吧

下樓去Wesley的電腦螢幕上
準備了滿滿的圖片要讓我看
他一張一張的翻給我看
並且很有耐心的解釋
圖片中有些色彩斑斕的蛇，蜥蜴，樹蛙，烏龜，噩魚
有些是我平常看了會害怕的動物
可是這一次孩子卻讓我看見了
地球生態的美妙
他對動物的熱情與喜愛
也讓我從他的眼中看見了另一個世界
一個人與大自然更親切相處的世界
難怪昨天寵物店的阿姨
看見孩子們很高興的讓一只Corn Snake繞在手上時
很開心的說她看見了地球未來的希望
因為孩子們更懂得以愛心和動物們相處了

中午我們到外面吃了午餐
給Aspen包了便當
到學校看她的台灣之旅的Presentation
一個個小小的暫停反而是一天中最精彩的片段

沒有

在所有的想要裡

我盲了

盲是

只看見了所沒有的

所有的有不見了

〜意識的聚焦與沒有的力道

天性

當我們不再帶著傷痕的時候

其實也沒有什麼可以傷害到我們

許多傷痛其實只是舊傷痕的反應

傷痕的產生來自不理解的痛

理解了是否就可以將傷痕撫平了呢

因為痛 我們不敢無目的的愛了

所以後來我們須要了

許多的教義、教條，與規範

以讓我們的行為看似理想的自己

可是我們忘記了

曾經

赤子之心的我們

就是這樣自自然然的

愛著這個世界

和所有的人們

所以對人好是再自然不過的

不是希望得到愛

不是希望別人對我們好

只是單純的愛的流動

成長

一層層的盲點

漸漸變得清晰

卻也是一層層的圓圈

一次次回到原點

回到了原點

才看見了另一層的樓梯

然而我所不懂的

依然就像宇宙一樣大

價值

爸爸說的一段話，給我很深的感動：

「名利、權力

常常反而是我想做些事情時的絆腳石」

＂當你有名的時候，會聽你的人難道不是更多了嗎，能影響的人不是更多＂

「那些都是短暫的，再了不起也不過幾十年，事情不是做給別人看的，而是你是否真正創造了價值，那才是永久的。別人看不看見並不重要」

「名利反而會讓心浮動了，要花更多心力才能平心靜氣，去做真正有價值的事」

名利權力在有的時候，對Ego是自然的牽動力，帶來膨脹的躁動。在沒有的時候，一樣也牽動Ego, 帶來渴求，不足感。也不是Ego不對、不好，那只是它的屬性。倒是名利權力是虛的。

雖然名利權力對我而言從來就不是重要的，但是別人怎麼看的力道卻一直在，我常常是到別人的眼光裡去尋找所做的事情的價值，不被肯定就覺得那是沒有價值的，進而自己是不夠有價值的 。其實那真的只是一個信念、一個觀點感受。現在倒是覺得就安安心心去完成想做的事情就對了。其他真的都不用管。不論結果是什麼，都是最完美的狀態。

我一直喜歡草原上的小花

因為它們從來沒有被看見的需要

卻是自由的生 自在的長

快樂過一生

冥冥之中我知道

這一個旅程

這一段話

是宇宙給我的一份很重要的禮物與恩寵

秋天

深廣的藍天

絢麗的大地

落葉給凋零帶來了

新的啟示

猶自飄落

在本質與空性的回歸裡

樹也輕了

我喜歡的柱子

每天上下班

等車的地方

祝福

帶著光 輕輕上路吧

身體 不再疼痛了

你用心活著每一天

努力的活下來

你讓我學會

珍惜生命

每一天 得來不易

多麼希望

生命可以改寫

多麼希望

病痛不是必須的

多麼希望

你可以和家人幸福共渡

但宇宙似乎有它的計劃

你平靜的離開了

完成了這一生的功課

謝謝你 天使

在光裡送上最深的祝福

天使 輕飛

引力

讀著Stan Grof的Holotropic Breathwork

書裡許多個案的故事也牽動著我的感受

想起Hendrix的理論

我們常常無意識的讓最受傷的感受、關係牽引著

特別是童年與父母關係當中的印記

明明是最不想重複的

一再吸引重複

因為痛的，力道最大

回頭看

許多美好的記憶、際遇

也一直都在

它們簡單、容易、自然

可是反而是輕輕飄過的

像雲 不著痕跡

因為 力道不大

那些痛的反而因為深刻

不斷的在作用力中

吸引來更多相同的人事

無意識的神經傳導作用

還真的就是這樣創造實像

夢中醒來

腦海裡的記憶開始重組

那些讓我感覺溫暖、滋養記憶片段

開始湧現

當溫暖與冰冷刺痛的記憶開始平衡

我發現

我是可以在這個當下重新選擇

神經原的傳導路徑的

在有意識裡

我還真的不知道為何自己

會選擇冰冷刺痛

可是在無意識裡

那個引力就是這麼作用

只因為強度

醒來的感受是

過去我讓情感的強度無意識的做選擇

可是在新的頻率裡

是品質而不再是強度在吸引了

於是像雲一樣輕的感受

也可以是很強的引力

心

來自心：

把愛帶到你所不愛的地方

「不愛」只能是頭腦念頭

把愛帶到你所恐懼的地方

恐懼也只能是頭腦的感覺

而心只單純的
知道愛

關於愛

從小我就很害怕大人生氣

長大了就變成是害怕別人生氣

一是害怕迎面而來的強烈情緒衝擊

二是感受到愛的斷裂

於是我習慣以Pleasing的方式討愛

直到我發現這樣得到的愛都是有條件的

那就是「假如你做了我不認同的事

我的期待之外的事

我就有可能對你生氣

或是不理你

而那是你的錯」

於是又回應了我對生氣的害怕

其實別人的強烈情緒是別人的

當我不害怕的時候

它不過就只是強烈的情緒

它可以流經我而接地

就像避雷針從不害怕雷電

也只有當我完完全全接受了自己

不再以Pleasing的方式討愛

無條件的愛才有了存在的空間

允許自己以自己的方式去愛

也允許別人以別人的方式去愛

於是在任何情緒底下

愛從不曾斷裂

路

有一天當我們走了很長的路

長到我們成為了一個有定義的自己

我們還能回到那沒被定義的狀態嗎？

忽然有些明白死亡、輪迴的意義了

那麼假如可以

就不斷的讓自己歸零

以重新開啓新的經驗，新的自己吧

讓自己有許多定義

也從不被定義

Surrender

The eagle surrender to the wind and it flies
The river surrender to the gravity and it flows

Ever so strong I feel the message is to surrender and life will flow

Earth is a beautiful dream

Out of nothingness, we create

Out of creation, we become

In becoming, we feel

In feeling, we love, we hurt, we laugh, we cry

One day we all go back to nothingness

And Earth is a beautiful dream to remember

負面

昨天和朋友談到生命的驅動力是信任還是恐懼

談到恐懼只會吸引來更多

我們想逃避的事物

可是其實這些經驗

是來幫助我們成長的

成長又為了什麼

心中冒出來的聲音說

那就不再害怕了！

更深的感受是

不論驅動力是信任或是恐懼

宇宙永遠默默在護持

它的驅動力永遠是愛

在任何情況下

都一直在給予領悟的機會

領悟又為了什麼呢？

回到最初始的自己啊

簡單的快樂與幸福

觸碰到正面與負面的二元性之下

更深的愛一直都在

就是最簡單的幸福了

相信

在現場聽了Jonette channel的Mark之後

我才發現自己真正打從心底相信了

來自宇宙的愛

無條件的愛

Darkness in a different light

I went to Jonette's class this week, she channeled Mark who is an entity from higher dimension.  Mark guided us to an altered state of consciousness where you can experience being the light and the darkness.  

 

I could never describe darkness before, but this time it felt closer to me.  In an undistorted form, darkness was really nothingness and potential, it silenced the mind and brought us back to the state where the quantum waves hasn't collapsed.

 

I used to be afraid of darkness because I didn't understand it, I equated darkness to negativity.  Now I just feel that darkness is there to provide a space for light to show, and it is the purest thing in the universe because it is the nothingness itself.

 

When Mark asked us to go into a shaman space of clarity, I saw a crystal clear lake reflecting the stars in nighttime.  

I was sitting by the lake and my body is formed by the water of the lake, I have a crystal body and a white swan was floating in the center of the lake.

The lake was one of creation and healing, it felt like from nothingness came the lake of clarity, and consciousness emerged from it and materialized in various forms.  
 

To me, the stars in the night sky were portals into time and space, they existed simultaneously in the spacious now.  Mark then asked us to form synapses into these simutaneous times and dimensions and saw that new potentials were being created.  I saw all of you rotate around me, we were all connected, all times and spaces were connected, all was one, and one was all.

 

 

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

This is so beautiful, from Jonette Crowley's blog:

 

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you figure out which one it is,

you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty;

to provide you with guidance and support;

to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend, and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. 

Sometimes they die.

Sometimes they walk away. 

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. 

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. 

The prayer you sent up has been answered;

 now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,  

because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.  

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,  and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

 — Unknown

結果

Solomon一再強調不要在乎結果

因為我們的頭腦所認定的結果總是限制性的

看見自己對療癒的期待總是病好起來了

可是這是多麼大的不自由 對別人 對自己

也是多麼大的無力感的緣由

謝謝你 陪我走過 讓我看見 自己

對不起 我給你的投射與限制

請原晾 過程裡我的childishness與無知

我愛你 希望所有學習到的領悟 讓這個疾病有了一個新的出口 雖然我們都不知道那是什麼

期待

我發現我的無力感來自於期待某一種療癒的結果，比如說疾病消失了，當結果和期待不一樣，就覺得無力。一個期待其實投射了一種結果，一條不自由的線。

陪伴應該是更自由的。。療癒的過程應該也是沒有目的的吧？

目的總是頭腦的範疇與局限吧？

發現自己很好笑，相信一個道理，就去投射一個結果，結果反而違背了教導本身。

看見的其實是自己的執。

現在比較瞭解過程多一些了。。

上課

讀Solomon Speaks感覺像是靜靜的聽一位老師上課，感覺好像坐在教室裡很久很久了，久遠到時間之外。

Solomon的每一句話，都像一股暖流，緩緩流過心田。

筆記 （8）相同

This penchant for human beings to discover how unalike they are, how distinct they are -- it all has to do with ego. That self that keeps us rooted in this  plane.  We have now managed to "create" how different we all are.  And in that difference comes disharmony.

Where we need to put the energy now is in how similar we are, how much we all have that is similar that can be shared.  How alike we all are, in terms of joy and pain and suffering and elation.  And we need to share that information now.

...

So that's what we need to recognize.  And part of attaching strings, when they first came to Eric, was recognizing that we are all, in an umbilical sense, connected to the same force.  Like reconnecting Strings.  Because we've lost that connection, the understanding that each individual's greatness is relied upon by the other person's greatness, by recognizing their greatness, not their inability.

It's an awakening, a remembrance, because people are very disconnected from their creation.

~ Solomon Speaks

Robin Williams

一直最喜歡你的電影

它們深深觸動過我的生命

聽見你選擇了離開

心中有許多感傷 不捨

活著 有時候並不容易

而你總是把歡笑留給大家

筆記 (7) - 認出

You complicate your life by cerebrally interfering with something that has only to do with instinct.  You second-guess your mission, when the mission should be driving your existence.  You must listen to your instinct in order to follow your life to its conclusion and fulfill its mission here on this plane.

There is great energy to be found throughout your life.  You must open your eyes to it and recognize its value when it appears.  Too often you have closed your eyes to something of great worth right under your nose.

You will find that as you proceed, you will become more accustomed to recognizing That Which Is in its manifestation on this plane.  You will more readily connect with those fellow voyagers on this plane, and together you will experience the kind of bliss that was inherent in your life from the beginning.

These connections will grow stronger as you allow yourself to come in contact with those who are harmonious to your existence.  The music that you will hear will be of a harmonic nature and will carry you along in the relationship.  If you find that these relationships are disharmonious or are not of the same music, as it were, these are not relationships that are there to help you continue, and you should recognize that.  They are there to help you grow but not to continue.  There is a difference.

～　Solomon Speaks

筆記 (6) - 比較是沒有意義的

You have the tendency on this plane to judge your progress by comparing it to someone else's progress.  It's needless.  What is of importance is that you pursue your mission.  Your life force, your instinct, will take you there.  But it's nothing more than distraction to look to the left and to the right.
~ Solomon Speaks

我們常常不由自主的會去比較別人的進度，比較是不必要的。重要的是你朝著你個人的使命前進。你的生命能量，你的本能自覺力，將會帶領你到那裏。沒有比往左看，往右看更讓人分心了。

筆記 (5) - 釋放

If you are able to release this need to feel powerful, you will access a purer form of energy.  You will accomplish more with less effort.  A person's own energy will get in the way.  If you have even a glimpse of this comprehension, it will lead you.  You only need to see a bit of light to pursue it.  A candle burns brightly in the dark, you know.

～　Solomon Speaks

假如你能釋放掉必須感覺有力量的這個需求，你將能接觸到更純淨的能量形式。你將能花費更少的力氣完成更多。個人自身的能量會造成障礙。如果你能有一些即便是細微的瞭解，它將能帶領你。你只需要看見一些光，你知道一根蠟燭在黑暗裡是非常亮的。

筆記 (4) - 自我價值

Self-worth is not dictated by the amount of possessions you obtain, or what you can hold on to.  Self-worth is about an inner being being fulfilled, and allowing that joy to surface through its life.

***

In terms of your own self-worth, you must know that you are worthy from within.  The need for your fulfillment is often of a nature that requires attention from others.  Your fulfillment is in yourself; you need to rely on yourself.  In essence, you need to love yourself.  It will clearly enable you to convey the love that is coming through you in much greater degree in the near future.  It will also keep your eyes on the road.  It will allow you to continue where you need to go.

You need to understand that this comes from within your life, your history... from the universe.

～　Solomon Speaks

自我價值並不是由你擁有多少或你能擁有什麼所決定的。自我價值是內我的存在豐盈了，並容許那喜悅的生命自然湧現。

關於你的自我價值，你必須由內知道你是有價值的。你的完成與滿足感的本質卻常常包含了需要外人的注意。你的完成是在你自身之內的，你必須愛你自己。它將容許你傳遞來到你的更大尺度的愛。它將讓你專注在你的道路上，讓你去到你所要去的地方。

你必須瞭解這來自你生命的內在，你的歷史。。。來自宇宙。

筆記 (3) - 信息場，語言之外的溝通

They don't use language for communication.  They use thought in many cases.  It's impossible to translate in many ways but it's communicated the same way a smell is communicated, or a vibration.  Vibration is language.  Fragrance is language.  It's in a different type of plane.  It communicates.  It creates imagery.  When you smell certain smells, vivid images come forth.  It is not talking to you in sentences.  When you see kinesthetic movement and dance and suddenly you are weeping, there is no language being communicated, but it is a language.  Movement through space becomes language.  It communicates.

～Solomon Speaks

振動是語言
花香是語言
舞動也是語言
那語言之外的宇宙之音，你聽見了嗎？

筆記 (2) -在宇宙空性裡的喜悅

There is a sublime ecstasy in nothingness. You need to experience that with all your clients.  The rhythm of the universe between you is harmony in life itself.  You will need to allow that rhythm to conduct itself before you begin your work.  The energy will follow naturally.

Your work is such that it educates you as well as your clients and patients.  It informs both.  You should be growing as much as they are in the process.  Don't deny the growth you will experience.  It is your process. It is not about doing necessarily solely for them, as much as it is doing for you.  Your consciousness will expand in direct proportion to your ability to open your life to your client.

You may have a habit of projecting energy rather than letting it flow.  You force it.  It's like someone singing a high note.  It's clenched and shrill, but when relaxed into, it's full and melodious.  You're forcing the moment.  You're forcing the energy.  It will flow naturally when relaxed into.

It's like any great artist.  They must clear the channel to create.  It comes from a higher power, all great art.  You can't get in its way.  You must allow it to flow, not force it.  It is an acquired skill.  It's about allowing it to happen, relaxing into it instead of forcing.  You are going to acquire what you need.  You just need to let go of acquiring.

You mustn't disavow your life in its path of learning.  There are only lessons.  There are no mistakes.  And you will continue to have lessons.  It's unending, but it will lead you to the space you need to be in.
~ Solomon Speaks

在宇宙的空性裡有一種純淨的喜悅。你必須先經驗它，療癒的能量會隨之自然湧現。

你的工作將讓你與你的個案一同成長，你的意識的拓展將等比於你所能將你的生命對你的個案敞開的程度。

你或許有個投射能量而不是讓能量自然流動的習慣，你習慣去迫使它，但其實當你放輕鬆讓它自然流動時，它將是更豐盛和諧的。

就像任何偉大的藝術家，他們必須先清通管道才來創造。所有偉大的藝術都來自更高的力量。你必須讓它流動，而不是迫使它。容許它發生，放鬆進入它。。你將會獲得你所要的，但你必須先放下去獲取。

生命裡只有學習，沒有錯誤。你將繼續會有學習的課題，它不會終止但它將帶領你到你需要去的地方。

筆記 (1) 來自宇宙的能量

Your energy is of the universe.  Feel it in your life -- in your life.  In the force that motivates you.  Feel it through your heart.  It is your own by its force.

It is an apparition of the force that is implied in life itself.  You feel it in your moments of ecstasy and energy.  It is always constant.  You are inconstant.  Your ability to access it is inconstant.  You need to unleash your heart from your head.  It is not a cerebral exercise.  You won't find it that way.  It's in your instinct.  You must carry it in your instinct.  You cannot buy it anywhere.

You have to decide why you love this work.  Where is it coming from?  Where is this love for this work?  You need to examine that with your heart.  It is not about fulfilling your needs.  It is about opening your life to experience.  It's not there for gratification.  It's there for exploration.

There is nothing wrong with gratification, if it is the by-product of the work.  If it is the initial goal, it is misguided.

~ Solomon Speaks

我們的能量來自宇宙, 在生命裡去感受它。 在鼓舞你的動力中感受它。用心去感受，在它的力量裡，它是你的一部分。

它一直都在，恆常地在，假如我們感受不到它了，那是我們的心不在了。它不在頭腦裡，它在你的天性直覺裡。

你要知道為什麼你喜歡這個工作，這個喜歡與喜愛從哪裡來？你要用心去檢驗。它不是為了滿足你的需求。它是來開啟你的生命經驗的。它不是為了帶來滿足，它是為了探索。

滿足感沒有錯，但它只是一個副產品，不是初始的目的。假如以它為目的，那就錯了。

Wind

那些穿透宇宙屏幕傳來的智慧之音, 像風。。

It is like the wind blowing through the trees.  The wind isn't the sound of the trees rustling, but that sound is the manifestation of it.

~ Solomon Speaks by Eric Pearl

夢想

沒有完成的夢想

有時候

竟成為了一觸即發的傷痕

感受到的

是那沒有完成的缺憾

問自己

這不是很矛盾嗎

原先夢想是生命的動力

而後卻成了另一個痛苦之身

那個痛反映的我執

其實是在告訴我

不要拘束於夢想表現的形式

假如只有一定的表現形式

才是一種完成

那何嘗不是在完成小我

一的法則

第一回讀一的法則時

聽見Ra說道

靈魂有兩種極性

服務自己與服務他人

當時的我其實是覺得很困惑的

理性的二分法馬上對號入座

將之分為黑與白

花了許多時間

在心中天翻騰地做著這個功課

直到

我看見了宇宙的慈悲

宇宙要告訴我們的

只是

「是」你自己就好了

其實不用「做」這麼多

這樣才能回到生命的中心

如果你是服務自己的極性

那麼就走那一條道路

宇宙只要求你拿出百分之二去服務他人

如果你是服務他人的極性

宇宙也希望你將百分之四十九留給自己

不掏空自己

也是重要的

在「是」裡

我們就成為了宇宙頻率的保持者

力量

無力感是在洞口往下看

看見很深很深

填不起來的洞

力量是沉到谷底

接受所有

靜下心來

一步一步的往上爬

每一步都是在加分

越是深的洞

收穫越多

對話

曾經我一直希望

生命中有一位可以對話的老師

後來我才發現

生活裡發生的每一件事

其實就是和一切萬有的對話了

只是

我聽見了嗎？

當我這麼看見的時候

我也才聽見了

無處不在的祂

恐慌

讀Jay Haley的Uncommon Therapy

Erikson談到恐慌症

他的觀點是

恐慌症的發生是因為

在一段關係裏

原來讓人覺得安全的動力改變了

可是這改變也是自然的

關係原來就是一個Progress

在關係的動力中

我們前進成長

所以假如將關係看成是一個

依賴以取得安全感的方式

恐慌的發生反而是要來提醒我們

擺脫這個執著的

靈魂原來就是

來自由冒險

也處處安全的

安全感

其實是一種我執

遊戲心

常常在緊張、焦慮的時候

忘了攜帶的是

一顆遊戲的心

星星

夜晚的星星

你們一直都在

可是白天我看不見你們

就以為你們都不在了

危險

在書裏讀到這麼一句話

You are obsessed with avoiding risks

讀著感覺被震撼

什麼時候

我們被催眠

危險是要迴避的？

接受自己

當我放下「我不夠好」的故事

而接受自己的時候

我接受的是如是的自己

不需要很好

也沒有不好

就是自己

筆記

It's better to be who you are and be real and be human even while you begin to bring into this world those attributes that are spiritual and divine.  But you don't have to be perfect to do that.

Only by being who we are and knowing where we are, can we evolve.

~ Steven Greer, Hidden Truth - Forbiden Knowledge

Turn

I realize when I am fighting something, what is important is not what I fight for or the answers to those external questions, but to answer why I am fighting it?  What is it that I can't accept? and why is that I am not willing to see from a different light? 

In answering those question I have to make myself turn, and a different pathway emerge.

I am not fighting it anymore

I am not fighting it anymore

I realize the more I can't accept something

the more it is there 

to awaken my understanding

my acceptance

and ultimately my heart

and the beginning of a transformation.

Looking

The left brain always wants answers
However the universe is full of paradox
which only the right brain can understand...

Looking out, the universe is full of mystery
Looking in, I start to understand myself a little more each day
..in every experience and story that I encountered..

樹

在中央公園裡看見這些大樹
多麼茁壯的生命
感覺它們就像是凝定的舞者

生命故事

感謝Rich老師以及紐約的同學們的用心，讓我又經歷了一個很棒的回溯工作坊。在每一個生命故事的背後，我看見了許多堅韌美麗的靈魂，在許多嚴苛的挑戰裡，坦然、堅毅走來。原來生命裡的磨鍊從不是為了為難我們，卻是為了雕塑我們。有一天這許許多多的故事都可以放下了，留下的卻是洗煉之後晶瑩剔透的靈魂與領悟。

Divine Law

Divine law is not judgement or denial of self-truths.  Divine law is honoring harmony that comes from a peaceful mind, an open heart, a true tongue, a light step, a forgiving nature, and a love of all living creatures.  Honor the past as your teacher, honor the present as your creation, and honor the future as your inspiration. 

~ Medicine cards

心靈原像

闊別二十年再回到曼哈頓

許多街景依然相近

那些最古老的建築

反而是最不會改變的

也許它們就像是心靈地圖裡的標誌

時時刻刻提醒著我們

那最初始的心靈原像

一首歌

在一篇文章裡讀到
在非洲有一個部落
母親在有懷孕的念頭時
會先到樹下靜心
祈求屬於孩子的一首歌
然後在
受孕，誕生，成長的每一個過程裡
他們都會唱這一首歌
歡慶的時候唱這一首歌
碰到挫折也唱這一首歌
做錯了事族人也會為他唱這一首歌

忽然
我明白了什麼是滋養
每一個孩子都是受祝福的
所以他們都有一首與生俱來的歌
那像是與宇宙連結的臍帶
輸送著來自宇宙的滋養
挫折的時候
犯錯的時候
其實更需要的是
無條件的滋養
那永恆的愛與祝福

讀著讀著
我忽然也記起了我的歌
它沒有固定的旋律
只是自由跳動的音符
像流水浮雲
在心中流淌

開始

這一陣子一直在做立足點的功課
關於對自己的能力的肯定
對於自己覺得不安的部份
則去學著去接受它的一切狀況
並沉下心來學習
就從那一點出發

這個功課帶出很多心裡的不安與焦慮
也直接反映在外在事物上
比如一起工作了八年同事
也是我工作上的Mentor
忽然決定離職了
許多工作都是
他負責一半
我負責另一半
而合起來剛剛好的
他辭職的隔天我就扭傷了腳
我知道自己心慌的是自己的立足點
害怕改變及不敢前進
卻也同時想換工作了

試了兩次連結內我的靜心
感受到的都是恐懼
後來決定靜下心來先專注在療癒扭傷的腳
去連結感受那個痛與糾結
我才發現關於能力的部份
不是自己沒有那個能力
而是自己對於自己的能力
沒有信心

清完自我意識的糾結之後
腳也好了大半
決定開始找工作
讓自己踏出去
並肯定自己的價值
以及不去害怕自己沒有的
於是很順利的就找到了下一份更適合自己的工作
宇宙似乎是在告訴我
是時候自己站起來了

多重次元的自己

在回溯經驗裡
我最喜歡的一刻是
當我回到了宇宙的中心
時間 空間 過去 未來 各種可能的平行實相
像星星一樣在我周圍散開
在心中拋出一個問題
讓連結內我的意念
把我帶到那個時空裡
去體驗那個經驗

那一刻
心是自由的
選擇有了最大的意義
小宇宙與大宇宙的浩瀚
連接上了

今天讀到這一篇文章
把這個概念描述得很好
想在這裡分享

http://www.douban.com/group/topic/31267722/

在前面光之工作者的系列章节里，我们已经或多或少地按年代顺序讲述了光之工作者灵魂的历史故事以及他们的内在发展。此故事可能给你的印象是：你是从时间A点发展到B点，从黑暗走向光明，从愚昧走向智慧。
在某些方面，是这样的。
然而在这最后一章，我们希望请你把注意力转向另一个角度。这个视角把你提升到时间之外，提升至此特定历史之外，并让你与自己的永恒存在――你的多重次元性――相识。
你有一部分是完全独立于时空的。这部分可随时随意自由地进入任何体验的次元或领域。它任何时候都可自由地选择黑暗或光明。
从你的世俗角度来看，你以线性方式从A点旅行到B点。例如，你经历了我们讨论过的内在发展的4个阶段，一步接一步。
然而，从永恒的、多重次元的角度来看，真正的你并不随时间发展，而是在体验这发展。真正的你不需要发展。它用自己的自由选择允许这一经验进入。此选择的驱动来源于对二元性体验的伟大价值的深刻认知。
从你永恒的、灵性自我的角度来看，任何时间你都可以自由地体验从A到B到Z线上任何一点和以外之处。你可以在任何时候为自己激活任何意识的现实，因为从终极的角度来说，你卡在内在发展的某一阶段的这个想法只是幻象。
我们之所以想把你的注意力引向这一观点的原因是，它可能帮助你突破内心的障碍。它可能帮助你穿透幻象的帷幕，并直接接触你自己的光我（Light Self）：你真正所是的天使能量。
要掌握这个看待你自己的真正角度，我们需要详细说明时间这个概念。

时间
在全一的最高层次里，没有时间。这是神灵、神、纯粹存在的层次。在这层次，没有发展，没有“成为”，只有“是”。
在全一的最低层次，经历到的分离是最强烈的，一个空洞的、线性的时间概念被启用。我说的“空洞”是指时间是一个科学的抽象概念，完全与主观、感觉无关。此概念内的时间是你之外的一个客观结构。时间像一个外部框架那样覆盖你的经验。
例如，一个你用来申请工作时递交的“履历表”，往往包括这种事实的客观时间表。这一年里我做这个，那一年我从那学校毕业，等等。你强调事物的可见外部一面。事物的内在一面——动机、意义、主观——被排除在外。
在全一和分离之间的能量层次上，时间是一个随你经验而“上下波动”的现实。时间是一个经验上的概念：划分经验的一种方式。在这些层次里，存在着时间，但它不是独立于你的经验或经验之外的东西。
例如，在你睡眠之中和死亡之后游历的星光层（astral planes）中并不存在“时钟时间”。时钟时间是把时间从主体上解开的最大尝试，主体即你和你的经验。它是一个主要的幻像。在星光层，时间是你经验的节奏。你有时候休息，现在和某人见面，然后自学，等。哪个阶段结束和另一个阶段开始的时间点，并非取决于时钟时间——外部的东西——而是你感觉的内在流动，那对你是自然而然的东西。
这种对时间或节奏的自然感觉，也可以是地球生活的一部分。时间的主观性，即时间在不同的情况下体验起来不一样的事实，是大家所熟悉的。当你玩得开心时说“光阴似箭”，而当你在牙医的等候室或在超市排队时，时间似乎陷入停顿。
现在，你内在的怀疑论者可能说：当情况消极地被体验时，时间被觉得是慢的，反之当情况积极地被体验时，时间被觉得似乎走得更快。但时间本身总是相同的，按相同的习惯滴答滴答，不论我们如何经历事情。
这是时间的“客观框架”概念，也被称为时间的线性概念。它源于对时间的一种理性的科学推论。
但请想象一下没有时钟，没有白天黑夜，没有诸如太阳、月亮和潮汐等用来测量时间的天然影响。然后，你只能依靠自己对时间的主观感觉。
你对时间的客观测量工具——时钟——不是真的基于某些外部的东西；它是那些希望划分和归类的人类思维的产物。人类思维已经从地球的自然现象里归纳出事物的一些规律。但是独立于人的时间是不存在的。它是一种幻像，是某种陷入分离信仰的意识产物。
时间本质来说是主观的。时间是划分经验的一种方式，因而你可以理解经验。例如，你说某人：“他是一个老灵魂。”你真的是指他的年岁或人世的数字吗？抑或你用“老”这个词代表他表现的特定品质，如智慧、平衡和安宁，而不是一定量的时间？“老灵魂”一词里涉及的时间实际上是经验。
时间在字面上的充分意义是内在层次的“动态生成”。这可能是一个到目前为止的有用概念，因为它可以帮助你阐明事物的自然节奏或流动。但作为一个超越你的客观事物，这个概念往往局限了你并使你分心。你并不局限于某个具体的时间线。你不是一个线性存在。在你目前所经历的时间框架之外，还有各种你存在的层次。我们现在希望你注意到的正是你的这个方面：你的多重次元性。

多重次元
根据时间的线性概念，你不可能同一时间出现在多个地方。在这种概念里，“你”指的是你的身体、与你身体/大脑相关联的你的意识。（科学还不能解释身体和意识究竟是如何连接在一起的，但它确实认同一般来讲意识没有身体无法存在。）
根据“完全”主观的时间观念，你出现在你意识所在的地方。而你在时空中所处的地方则是由你的意识焦点，而不是你的身体位置决定。
例如：你在车站里，等待火车到达。火车还要一些时间才到，所以你只是坐在那里，发了一会儿呆，你没有注意到此时自己进入了一种变化的意识状态。你想起了昨天与你交谈的某人。你记起那对话，清楚地记得它如何影响了你。你重温那对话的某些方面，把它从过去拉到了“现在”。你在这里实际做的是：回到了过去，重温了那一刻的能量。而你“现在”的能量与过去的能量相互作用，可能会改变你在那一刻的经验，从而改变过去。
我们说的改变过去，并不是说你改变了任何物理事实，而是你用一种不同的解释或观点来覆盖它们。但是，通过改变对过去特定事件的感觉，你在一定意义上为自己改变了该事件。
这里有个例子。
你跟某人进行了一次交谈，尽管你对他的评论根本没有批评的意思，但是他对此很恼怒。他开始骂你，然后掉头就走。现在轮到你觉得生气了，你同时还感觉到被误解、愤怒和震惊。回到家后你有好几个小时觉得困惑，但之后你放开了它而且睡了个好觉。第二天早上在火车站上，你在等火车，突然之间你回顾起了这次突然出问题的交谈。你现在突然用从不同的角度去看待它，并意识到那个人为什么对你的评语这么冒火。你记起了一些他的往事，那些事你本已忘记。现在，你可以用一个完全不同的角度去看待他的情绪反应了――当它与自己无关。你意识到并不是你造成了对他的伤害，你只不过触动了他的旧伤疤。这种观感在你内心启动了不同的情绪反应。你感觉到解脱、领悟以及谅解。“噢，我明白了，现在我理解了，这个可怜的家伙。”
在那一刻，你正在重新创造过去。你正用不同的解释覆盖它，从而取代了你当初的反应。要清楚的是，这并不是说你当初的反应就没有发生，而是说那愤怒、震惊和误解的能量，已经被转化为理解和宽恕。一次“灵性炼金”在过去和现在的互动中发生。
真的，物理事实并不是那么重要。你对那情形的感觉，你对它的能量反应，才真正塑造了你的生活和现实。因而，我们可以恰当地说，你可以穿越时间回到过去处理仍需处理的能量，从而改变过去。
当你在火车站进行你的时间旅行时，还有些意识仍然存在于你的身体里。你可能会在回忆的同时感受到自己的手越来越冷，或听到一些年轻人正在你身后大声讲话。
意识能够分割自己。它可以在同一时间出现在不同的地方，也就是说，意识可以在同一时间住在不同的能量实相里。
这就是多重次元的含义。你的意识不受时空限制。虽然你在地球上的一生有一个基本的协议，即意识的某部分始终连接着你的物质身体，但你的意识不会因此就仅限于一个特定的时间点。你不受过去或将来的限制，因为它们也不是固定的。它们是经验的流动场。它们是可变的，而你可以从“现在”跟它互动。
虽然你可能认为自己被囚禁于身体里，但是你的意识是多重次元的。你可知道这个说法：“她留在过去出不来。”有的人不能放开过去，她的意识中充满了过去的经验和情绪，如遗憾、悔恨或悲痛。这个人的确“不在这里”，她在过去。她正在从现在的时刻跟过去打交道，却不是以解放、炼金术的方式。她的身体目前出现在这里现在，而她却留在过去。时间对她来说是静止的，尽管时钟滴答地走过了几个星期和几个月。这是因为她没有在经验上移动。
她没有与生活和体验的自然过程一起流动，这是多重次元的一个例子。就算你把自己局限在这种狭隘的意识聚焦里，你仍是多重次元的。我的意思是：多重次元不是你会变成的，而是你本来就是的东西。它是你的本性，是你存在的自然状态。
真正的问题是：你如何以解放和转化的方式来做一个多重次元的存在呢？你如何这样使用你的多重次元性：即你可以自由地穿过次元，而不失去与自己神圣灵性的联系呢？从一个智慧和觉察的位置来成为多重次元：这就是你的灵性天命。你的天命是要成为完全有意识的多重次元创造者。
成为有意识的多重次元的意思是，你释放掉了线性时间的幻觉，释放掉了你只是你的身体的那个概念。
成为有意识的多重次元，就是把自己等同于体内的圣灵（神），它绝对自由地进入任何它选择的经验领域，即次元。
成为有意识的多重次元是新地球实相的本质部分。
你苦苦纠缠于多重次元概念的原因是，你用物理的方式考虑“同一时间出现在两个不同的地方”。你的身体不能在同一时间出现在两个物理地方。然而，次元不是物理地点，或者说，不是“大块的物质”。次元是意识的领域，是遵守某些能量法则的意识界。
你的意识能够在同一时间参与不同的次元。这发生在“当下”。有过去的实相、未来的实相、星光层的实相、前世的实相、你体内天使的实相，甚至更多，它们全都在你体内交叉和相遇：此时此地。你现在就是多重次元的，但是你是有意识的多重次元吗？你允许各次元进出你吗，你能接纳它们所带来的能量，并认出它们是你的吗？
你始终与其它你在其中的各次元互动着，但如果你有意识和接纳地去做，你实际上是在转变那些次元现实。通过拥抱那些次元里的阻塞或压抑能量，并把它们保持在你的意识之光里，你解放和整合了自己的各部分，从而改变了现在。
许多意识的领域在你体内相遇，而你本质上是主人，你可以选择体验它们任何一个。你自由地游历它们任何一个，快或慢，近或远。只要你跟自己你体内的圣灵（the Spirit）认同，你就会保持“我是自由的”这个意识。
但是，当你卡在局限思维持有以下想法时，如“这是不可能的”，“那是不准的”，“这将出错的”等等，就沉入了分离的幻觉。你陷入线性时间的幻觉，幻想着自己是一个身体，幻想着与神分开。这样，灵魂暂时地“绑定”到某些经验领域。灵魂忘记它的真正起源，其神性和自由。
这个陷入或“绑定”，也被称为业力。
要“解开”或松开，往往经历所谓的“内在成长”的若干步骤或阶段。从人类线性的角度看，你正“释放业力”，并根据我们在“光之工作者”系列所说的四个内在发展阶段慢慢转变自己。然而，从灵性的角度来看，你只不过是恢复到你神圣意识的自然状态。从这一点来看，释放业力没有别的，只是记起你自己的神圣。

痛苦 （二）

有一些痛苦則是為了

讓自己在穿透它之後

變得更堅韌與擴展

痛苦

生命中的痛苦也許不是來讓我們受罪的

卻是來告訴我們這條路的方向不對了

或是要調整了

比較像是車子開出線外壓線時

路上的特殊印痕讓輪子發出的聲響

逃避痛苦

其實也是天生自然的調整

只是反方向不見得就是對的路

可能只是把痛苦拉扯得更大

答案在哪裡呢

也許就是覺知進場的時候

覺知來自更大的自己

像黑暗裡的車燈

照亮前方的路

路再怎麼彎曲

也清晰了

等待花開

時間正流向花開的時節

與其說是等待

不如說是時間正帶我漂向

那花開的時空

New Earth

地球有兩個
一個代表著舊的集體意識
一個代表著新的集體意識

在舊的集體意識裡
什麼都不做總覺得自己
有一種做不夠的愧疚感
還有價值的匱乏感

在新的集體意識裡
穩住自己的頻率
喜悅的存在
就已經是對新地球的貢獻了

痛苦之身、頭腦、恐懼、懷疑都屬於舊地球
信任、臣服、神奇、愛心卻是屬於新地球

我以外

自我探索到一個程度
忽然就想把焦點轉到
「我」以外的事情了
想走出自己的頭腦
重新認識這個世界

Heart

When you are in your heart,
Nothing needs to be done to bring change;
It will happen automatically and with grace.

~ Serpent of light, Drunvalo

微笑

在朋友寄來的超心理學年刊裡
讀到上一任編輯Lou的故事
Lou原先是一名電腦工程師
後來轉行讀心理學、催眠治療等
然後當了十幾年的回溯治療師
去年他決定退休了
去當一個Handyman
專門替老人們修理打點家裡的大小問題
也陪他們聊聊天
他說修東西聊天的過程更實在
每回在離開的時候
看見他們臉上的笑容
就是最大的滿足

讀了心裡很感動
價值其實無處不在
平凡閃爍著光輝

進與出

自我覺察的時候
總是要能深入信念感受的核心
也要能不讓思想牽絆
出入自在
不然常常也會變成
強迫性思考
遠離當下的存在
消失到頭腦裡去了

過敏

孩子從小對牛奶雞蛋堅果花生過敏
一路掙扎走來
當我們發現自己漸漸適應的時候
也意識到是時候開始走反向的路
去逐漸挑戰孩子的過敏原的時候了
第一個開始的是蛋
發現他們對蛋的反應不再像小時候那樣
會全身起疹、呼吸困難了
孩子的限制打開之後
我發現的反而是自己的慣性保護反應
久了之後演變成的限制和恐懼
要挑戰孩子的過敏原
第一個要改變的
其實是我自己
開始給自己做清理的時候
清理出許多的不敢、擔心萬一、不信任、害怕走出框框
也許他們的過敏從一開始反映的就是我的這些感受
又繼而透過他們的過敏反應給我帶來更多這樣的經驗
我以為是因為他們的過敏我才有的這些感受
其實更可能是因為有這些感受才造成了他們的過敏
既然首要的功課其實在自己身上
那麼就認真去完成它吧
這幾天我一直在覺察這些信念感受
並在靜心裡讓這些感受的力道慢慢散去
並去感受自己是怎麼創造實相的

困難

當我認識到所有的限制，只是為了讓我在解開它的過成中，更瞭解心靈的運作，更瞭解自己的情緒，感受，信念，思想，印痕，作用力，與反作用力，那些限制的根，反而就鬆動了。自己也更有耐心去經歷它，進入它，從而走出它。

魔術豌豆

生命被兩股力量推動前進
一是印痕感受的作用力與反作用力
一是天賦潛能自然湧起的創造力
這兩股力量很像DNA的雙螺旋
當生命不再隨著印痕感受無意識前進
當這股暗流在靜心裏緩和下來
在覺知裏成為往內瞭解自己的道路
心中的魔術豌豆天梯就萌芽了
順著它往上爬
就會遇見
那個大我的自己

經過

幾年前第一次聽湘庭老師的課時，我一直不能接受印痕這回事，那時候的我不願意接受過去可以影響現在，總相信是當下的信念在影響著當下的我，也相信信念隨時可以改變，要改就改了，生命不該有這麼沉重的負擔。

幾年下來，當我更細微的去覺察感受我的信念的時候，我才發現，像蛋白質包裹著DNA一樣，信念常常是被印痕感受所包裹的，越是核心，越是難以轉變的信念越是如此。於是印痕感受與它所包裹的信念形成了一條生命的鎖鏈，不斷地吸引來相同的人，事，物，也不斷地延長了這條鎖鏈。我開始暸解也相信了印痕的作用。

有趣的是當我不去害怕它，排斥它的時候，我發現印痕可以是很正面的，我開始可以把它當成一條道路，它不再是沖刷著我讓我不由自主往下漂流的洪水。我開始可以順著它往上走，一個事件連著一個事件把最初的感受找回來。當洪水變成了階梯，無意識就變成了有意識，復返或回溯變得很自然，一步步走來的人生，也一步步踏回去，沿途撿起的是每一個失落的本質，肯定，勇氣，價值與希望。

化去了印痕，信念也自由了。

道路

湘庭老師說到許多人會透過冥想等方式直接去追尋大我神性那部份，卻不得其門而入，原來門是在小我／物質體的我這裏，透過化解印痕，讓小我或物質體的我裡面的否定、沒有、不信任轉化為大我裏面的信任、裏面的價值、裡面的力量。它畢竟不是憑空而來的。

我想我也更瞭解為什麼我抽到的那張動物卡說沒有完成三次元的功課不會到更高次元了，因為三次元的功課正好就是道路本身。

蝸牛

我一直像一隻背著家
卻看不見它
拼命往前尋找它
的蝸牛

我一直以為心靈的家
在前方的某一點
於是我總是走在追尋的路上
找不到就覺得茫然

殊不知茫然是必然
因為心靈的家永遠不在前方
而在當下的心中

蝸牛一直背著它的家
是這麼的顯而易見
是誰瞎了眼呢？

失聯的心

假如外在事件反映的是內在心的狀態
失聯事件是否也反映了我的心呢？

這一陣子，我的心其實很像失聯的飛機
只知道往前飛著
不知道要飛去哪裡

唯一知道的只是照顧好當下的自己
做好當下的事情
茫然了和茫然相處
感受茫然的感受
把手邊的工作都當作靜心的材料
用最靜的心去完成
去感受心慢慢定下來
去感受自己和心，外在與內在
每時每刻的連結

這件事情也喚起了
小時候爸爸被內安法令扣留期間的心情
因為是無限期不知道什麼時候才回家
心中就是一種渴盼、也有很深的不安、擔心爸爸的處境
失聯航班的家屬內心的煎熬可想而知又是這許多倍以上
畢竟我當時還知道爸爸是活著的，在什麼地方
我們的心
都渴望一種確定與安全呢
對自己也對所愛的人

寫著這些感受的時候
我也感受到了航班上的成員與家屬都是天使
他們承擔與演出了我們的個人與集體意識
讓我們得以看見自己暗地裡運作的印痕

願有一天當我們的心都安靜的時候
我們能成為那愛與定本身
讓這個世界的集體意識
多一些愛與安定的力量

也許也許
當我們的心都安定了
他們就回來了

失聯

讀著馬航飛往北京班機失聯的新聞
我竟然默默渴望
那只是外星人暫時把飛機帶到了另一個時空
那麼多人的傷痛
如何撫平

靜心

在心中有一片大草原
草原中央有一棵大樹
每回只要想靜下心來
就來到這裡靜靜坐下

風是穿梭萬千歲月的風
輕輕吹過原野
在這裡世界靜止了
思慮靜止了
心自由了

平凡

當我發現自己在平凡與不平凡之間擺盪的時候
也終於接受了平凡
像是開門讓迷路多年的孩子回家

對不平凡渴求
對平凡排斥
於是自己不見了

平凡的自己其實很好
覺得不夠好的
是不夠肯定自己的自己
平凡的自己是紮根當下的自己
是平淡也是盈滿的
在這裡我才看見了價值與力量的核心

Judgement

This morning, right before I woke up, I finally remembered a dream.

I was on a train passing through some forest, there were some really poor people living alongside the railroad track, then I saw a really rich man like Warren Buffett, in every stop that was connected to a luxury hotel, the rich man offered to buy out all the furnitures in the hotel, and put on the train.

I saw that and I began to judge this person, how can he be so greedy and wanting so much? I see my judgement going as the train goes on, and he bought more stuff.

Then surprisingly, at the end of the dream, after he had bought all the furnitures he could buy, he asked his followers to give out all of those furnitures to the poor people who lived alongside the rail road track. Afterall, the reason he bought all those furniture was to give out to the poor...

I saw myself judging for no reason afterall. It was a good lesson for judgement.

星星的亮度

I realize that life purpose works so differently for the soul vs. the worldly self.. For example, for the worldly self, shining brighter means getting seen by more people, i.e. more recognition. For the soul, like a star, it shines for itself, not for others...

Shining brighter to be seen by more people would only feeds the ego and the pain body, and it will never be content.

A star that shines only because it is a star on the other hand shines with peace and content, and ever so bright.

追尋

今天聽湘庭老師說道：

＂我們常常錯過寧靜的片刻，太多的追尋。不過那些追尋也是必經的旅程，沒有追尋，哪來的平靜。平靜之後你就不會再追尋了。不再追尋之後，不是說你的生命不再前進，而是你可以平衡喜悅的創造，而不是努力用力的追尋。＂
 

心裡那種茫然，忽然就放下了許多。既然這是必經之路，就好好享受這個過程吧，這也是獨一無二的經驗。

使命感

有時候
我多麼希望知道
我能為這個世界帶來些什麼

在我心中
一直有個莫名的使命感
而讓我茫然的是
我居然不知道它是什麼

有時候
我多麼希望知道
自己是有個使命的

為什麼會有這樣的感覺呢？
我其實也很好奇
是為了證明自己的價值嗎？
但是要告訴自己
其實什麼都不用做
這麼做其實只是因為心裡的匱乏
所以想證明自己其實是有價值的還真難過
好像馬上就被否定了存在的價值似的

有一天我還真希望
心裡斬釘截鐵的知道
這就是我想做的事情了

帶著心 看見神

聽朋友談基督教
心裡有許多的感動
因為在她心裡
人與宇宙的萬事萬物
有一種神性的連結
那種神性的存在
讓我感動

常常我們走著走著
忘了心中那個
恆常的、神性的，與宇宙的連結
於是
生命變成是無盡的奮鬥掙扎
我們失去了我們的神奇感
我們失去了宇宙的滋養

價值天生自然的
存在於每個人身上
價值感卻不一定
還天生自然的
存在於每個人心中
不是自己沒有價值了
卻是失落了那點
神性的連結

在神性國度之外的二元世界裡
自我如何給予自己最高的評價
最終也不可避免的落入自己的審判當中
沒有末世的審判
更逃不開的卻是自己對自己的審判
而自我常常是一位更嚴格的神
是非善惡被染上了更深的色彩
陰影陽光變得更明顯

走著走著
我們忘了那神性神奇的連結
天與地之間
拉開了距離

Anatomy of the Spirit

讀Caroline Myss的Anatomy of the Spirit, 很喜歡裡面關於脈輪的這一部份，它描繪了生命發展的進程：

Level 1 - Tribal, group identity and the power that comes within the family. All is one.  Your bond to your biological family is symbolic of your connection to everyone and all that is life.  Viewing our family of origin in negative terms depletes a great deal of power from our energy system because it opposes the higher truth within the energy system. 

Level 2 - Partnership, Honor One another.  From the partnership chakra, we receive the power to act with integrity and honor within all our relationships, from marriage to friendship to professional buonds.  Everyone in your life plays a role essential to your development.  Your challenge is to become mature enough to recognize and live by this truth.  Yesod represents our energy need to form sacred unions with other human beings, unions from which the continuation of life comes.  We are spiritually driven to connect with the sacred within other people, to merge souls with a partner. 

Level 3 - Personal Power, Honor Oneself. To develop self esteem and self respect.  The Chakra contains our "Survival intuition", our sense that protect us when we are in physical danger and alert us to the negative energy and actions of other people.  The symbolic meaning of the sacrament of Confirmation is the acceptance of responsibility for the quality of person we become.  Part of the process of becoming conscious of ourselves is an "initiation" experience or a "coming of age" ceremony.  The spirit requires such an experience or ceremony as a marker for emergence into adulthood when this marker is absent, a conscious or unconscious negative impression or void manifests itself in psychological weakness.  Some of these manifestations are: a continual need for the approval of other people, inability to appreciate oneself; inability to develop a healthy sense of oneself as an individual.  The ability to glean intuitive guidance from one's own spirit rests on a strong sense of self and on respect for that self.

Equally significant is the role of self-esteem in healing and in maintaining a healthy body.  When we lack self-respect, our relationships with others are temporary and fragile states of intimacy.  We continually fear abandonment because the terror of being alone drives our actions.

The symbolic meaning of the sefirah of Nezah is endurance - the power to maintain strength and stamina beyond the capacity of the physical body alone.  This power awakens when we accept our life as it is.  We lose this power when we focus on what is missing from life. 

Level 4 - Emotional Power, Love is Divine Power

This energy center is the central power point within the human energy system, the symbolic doorway into our internal world.  The energy of this chakra communicates to us the knowledge that love is the only authentic power.  Not only our minds and spirits but our physical bodies require love to survive and thrive.  The challenge inherent within this chakra is to refine our capacity to love others as well as ourselves and to develop the power of forgiveness.  The tranquil qualities of love - compassion, harmony, and beauty.

Level 5 - Will Power, Surrender personal will to divine will.  Every one of us has some awareness that we were born for a specific purpose, that life contains a divine plan.  The fifth charkra is the center for that awareness and for our desire to make contact with the divine plan.  As we mature, we all try to build our lives according to our own will.  First we separate from our parents; we establish our independence, and we seek a career.  Then inevitably, some event or crisis occurs.  Perhaps an occupation does not unfold according to plan; or a marriage does not work out; or an illness develops.  Regardless of the specific crisis, we find ourselves in a situation that forces us to confront the limitations of our own inner resources that prevent us from successfully completing our plans.  Once we are in that inevitable situation, we ponder some questions: "What am I meant to do with my life?  What was my purpose in being born?" These questions set the stage for aligning our will to the divine plan - the most profound choice we can make.  That one choice, made in faith and trust, allows divine authority to enter our lives and reorder our struggles into successes and our wounds into strengths.

Level 6 - Mind, seek only the truth.  From the mind chakra, we receive the energy to search for answers to the mysteries we encounter.  The energy pulsating from this chakra continually directs us to evaluate the truth and integrity of our beliefs.  We'll all encounter circumstances that cause us to change our beliefs and thereby come closer to truth.  We mature in our beliefs, step by step, experience by experience.  The energy from the sixth chakra is relentlessly pushing us to let go of perceptions that are untrue.  When we act against this energy, consciously blocking deeper truths from entering our mental field, our perceptual system clouds over.

The more we can release our learned tendency to judge, the more we open our minds to a quality of understanding that is divine in origin.  Human reasoning can never explain the complexity of why things happen as they do.  We can achieve a genuine sense of peace about life only by releasing our need to know why things happen in terms of human reasoning and by embracing Divine reasoning: "let me know what I am able to know and trust that behind all events, no matter how painful, there is a reason from which good can come."

Level 7 - Spirit, live in the present moment

The spirit chakra tells us that our spirits are eternal.  We are more than our physical bodies.  Our bodies' apparent relation to chronological time is only an illusion, one that our spirits are tasks with revealing.  It is unnatural to our divine design to let our thoughts live too long in the past; such an imbalance creates time wraps that interfere with our ability to live in the present and receive spiritual guidance each day.  That guidance will make no sense to us if we focus only on unraveling the myteries of yesterday.  If we live fully in the present moment, the mysteries of yesterday will gradually be unraveled for us.

Our spirits are drawn instinctively to this sacred truth.  From it we can receive inspiration that lifts us into estacy.  We thrive - and we heal - in ecstatic moments, when our spirits become stronger than our bodies, our bodies can respond to the commands of our spirits.

Creation

When We Created the World

It was lonely being the only One

And so I made two.

And then there was you.

You were so beautiful with your eyes of innocence

but I loved you from afar and yet so very near

and I loved you in ways you could not comprehend.

You didn't know I was watching through the eyes of
every person you met,

Nor could you hear my voice in the wind.

You thought that the Earth was just dirt and rocks,

You didn't realize it was my body.

When you slept, we would meet in your heart

And make love with our spirits as One.

We would birth new worlds with such passion.

But when you were awake, you remembered nothing.

You thought it was just another dream.

It was just another day alone.

But in your heart I await you, my love, forever.

For the truth of our love and Oneness will always be.

Our love is the Matrix of All That Is.

Remember, Sweet One,

In your heart I will always await thee

In the place that is small.
—Drunvalo

Question

給宇宙的兩個問題是
Who are you?
Who am I?

路

生命
有時候是走著走著
更瞭解自己
有時候是
走著走著
忘了自己

傾聽

Dr.William Bengston的The Energy Cure
打開了我對能量療癒網的好奇
似乎在我們周圍環繞著充滿智慧的療癒能量
可是怎麼去連結對我而言還是一團迷

繼續探索下去
找到了Dr. Eric Pearl的Reconnective Healing
他的方法和Bengston不謀而合
都強調只要自我意識不去干擾
放下預設想法
去傾聽 去接收宇宙純粹的能量
宇宙的能量是會自動幫助療癒的

我很喜歡這個方法
把手張開等待對能量的感受來到手上
就像把手伸進水裡
讓魚兒自動靠進一樣好玩

今天讀到Krisnamurti的the book of life
原來感受宇宙的能量
也和傾聽大自然的聲音很像
傾聽其實很簡單
複雜的是自己的思慮
難怪Eric一再強調Remain Childlike

January 1

 

Listen with ease

Have you ever sat very silently, not with your attention fixed on anything, not making an

effort to concentrate, but with the mind very quiet, really still? Then you hear everything,

don’t you? You hear the far off noises as well as those that are nearer and those that are

very close by, the immediate sounds—which means really that you are listening to

everything. Your mind is not confined to one narrow little channel. If you can listen in

this way, listen with ease, without strain, you will find an extraordinary change taking

place within you, a change which comes without your volition, without your asking; and

in that change there is great beauty and depth of insight.

 

January 2

 

Putting aside screens?

 

How do you listen? Do you listen with your projections, through your projection, through

your ambitions, desires, fears, anxieties, through hearing only what you want to hear,

only what will be satisfactory, what will gratify, what will give comfort, what will for the

moment alleviate your suffering? If you listen through the screen of your desires, then

you obviously listen to your own voice; you are listening to your own desires. And is

there any other form of listening? Is it not important to find out how to listen not only to

what is being said but to everything— to the noise in the streets, to the chatter of birds, to

the noise of the tramcar, to the restless sea, to the voice of your husband, to your wife, to

your friends, to the cry of a baby? Listening has importance only when one is not

projecting one’s own desires through which one listens. Can one put aside all these

screens through which we listen, and really listen?

 

January 3

 

Beyond the noise of words

 

Listening is an art not easily come by, but in it there is beauty and great understanding.

We listen with the various depths of our being, but our listening is always with a

preconception or from a particular point of view. We do not listen simply; there is always

the intervening screen of our own thoughts, conclusions, and prejudices...To listen there

must be an inward quietness, a freedom from the strain of acquiring, a relaxed attention.

This alert yet passive state is able to hear what is beyond the verbal conclusion. Words

confuse; they are only the outward means of communication; but to commune beyond the

noise of words, there must be in listening an alert passivity. Those who love may listen;

but it is extremely rare to find a listener. Most of us are after results, achieving goals; we

are forever overcoming and conquering, and so there is no listening. It is only in listening

that one hears the song of the words.

 

January 4

 

Listening without thought

 

I do not know whether you have listened to a bird. To listen to something demands that

your mind be quiet—not a mystical quietness, but just quietness. I am telling you

something, and to listen to me you have to be quiet, not have all kinds of ideas buzzing in

your mind. When you look at a flower, you look at it, not naming it, not classifying it, not

saying that it belongs to a certain species—when you do these, you cease to look at it.

Therefore I am saying that it is one of the most difficult things to listen—to listen to the

communist, to the socialist, to the congressman, to the capitalist, to anybody, to your

wife, to your children, to your neighbor, to the bus conductor, to the bird—just to listen.

It is only when you listen without the idea, without thought, that you are directly in

contact; and being in contact, you will understand whether what he is saying is true or

false; you do not have to discuss.

 

January 5

 

Listening brings freedom

 

When you make an effort to listen, are you listening? Is not that very effort a distraction

that prevents listening? Do you make an effort when you listen to something that gives

you delight?...You are not aware of the truth, nor do you see the false as the false, as long

as your mind is occupied in any way with effort, with comparison, with justification or

condemnation...

Listening itself is a complete act; the very act of listening brings its own freedom. But are

you really concerned with listening, or with altering the turmoil within? If you would

listen, sir, in the sense of being aware of your conflicts and contradictions without forcing

them into any particular pattern of thought, perhaps they might altogether cease. You see,

we are constantly trying to be this or that, to achieve a particular state, to capture one

kind of experience and avoid another, so the mind is everlastingly occupied with

something; it is never still to listen to the noise of its own struggles and pains. Be

simple...and don’t try to become something or to capture some experience.

 

January 6

 

Listening without effort

 

You are now listening to me; you are not making an effort to pay attention, you are just

listening; and if there is truth in what you hear, you will find a remarkable change taking

place in you—a change that is not premeditated or wished for, a transformation, a

complete revolution in which the truth alone is master and not the creations of your mind.

And if I may suggest it, you should listen in that way to everything—not only to what I

am saying, but also to what other people are saying, to the birds, to the whistle of a

locomotive, to the noise of the bus going by. You will find that the more you listen to

everything, the greater is the silence, and that silence is then not broken by noise. It is

only when you are resisting something, when you are putting up a barrier between

yourself and that to which you do not want to listen—it is only then that there is a

struggle.

~ Krisnamurti, The book of life

生命

生命其實很簡單
就是讓自己的能力、潛力
以各種方式
完全的發揮出來

神奇之道

昨天晚上臨睡前
和孩子們談神奇之道
他們是小小的＂自然人＂
聽了以後只問了一句
真的嗎？
我說是啊！
他們就很開心的接受了
Aspen說媽媽妳是一個Optimist，我也是

然後我們開始談20個夢想
原來我們有許多相同的夢想
包括去丹麥旅行

孩子的心
是沒有其他人的想法
沒有拘束
沒有不可能的
真好！