They can fly because they think they can

Like a child, he saw himself without limitation, so if someone else was able to heal, then of course he could do it better.

〜 The Energy Cure

看見

不斷地在經驗中發現
我比周圍的人恐懼、膽小、退縮許多
許多限制、懷疑
其實都是自己給自己的
所謂的陰影、黑暗
很多時候也是自己害怕
所以反而更躲在其中
我回到了我的影子裡去尋找我的內在小孩
擁抱那一個害怕的她


後來我才發現
自己心裡
有許多同時存在的震動頻率
恐懼的頻率是往內壓縮的
比較像是一個黑洞
把自己往內吸
於是自己看不見外面

信任的頻率則是開放的
比較像是遼闊的現在（spacious now)
靜止而快樂
像攤開在天上的星星
每一顆是一個可能性
開放地等待著自己來探索

兩個頻率其實同時存在
是什麼讓自己進入這個或那個
我其實還是有些疑惑
有時候仿佛就有莫名的引力
把自己吸入那個恐懼的黑洞
卻也只有在出來之後才看見它的存在

後記：
今天讀著賽斯私人課
似乎有些明白了
魯伯有兩個很明顯的個性
一個是很自發性的（右腦）
一個很理性很要求自己的很自律的（左腦）
恐懼其實常常來自於左腦
來自於理性
左腦的自己害怕自己超出
理性可以解釋的範疇
那個理性的自己只敢做大家都接受的事情
右腦看了就會說為什麼呢？
宇宙這麼大
為什麼讓自己框在一個小小的點上
去恐懼害怕別人的看法了
我其實只是在遊戲

聖誕快樂

今天聽到一位朋友的故事
才知道平安夜一如生命中的任何一天
對某些人而言也可能是極度悲傷的日子

是生命中有了悲傷
我們才瞭解了平淡的幸福嗎

我願意相信
那些未完成的
那些失去的
那些來不及的
在另一個平行宇宙裡
進行得好好的

只是聽見一個悲傷的故事
心還是會痛
只想在這特別的一天裡
送上默默的祝福
和許多的愛

Medicine Card

Lizard... will you dream with me?
Travel across the stars?
Beyond the place of time and space
There live visions from afar

。。。

This was the Medicine Card that I picked yesterday

I am a dreamer
I always live by the future
As if my future self always come back to guide me along, leading me to a future that had already exists
In the dream, I am fearless
Yet in reality, I stumble upon fear after fear
I am really a timid person
All I can do is keep walking forward along with my fears
One day I realize
Fear is a neutral emotions
Only because I don't enjoy the feeling
I label it as negative, separate it and avoid it
I learn to relax into it, to feel it, to experience it
Then everyone of them slowly transform
Each of them becomes a light orb that holds the hand of my inner child and guides her along
And gradually helps her grow

There is a position for belief in the higher self
There is also a position for belief for the inner child
My dreamer self is also my higher self
I can always easily change my belief as my higher self
But my inner child never really step into the same position
And therefore the fears
She felt being drag along
When the fears transformed into light
They illuminated the seat for the inner child
She can now step into position
And when the higher self shift
They will be shifting together
And walking an illuminated path

Dreamer, dreamer, where does your future comes from?
Some days I wonder...
Even if it is all just a dream
It is still a beautiful one

William Bengston

這幾天在讀William Bengston的書
The Energy Cure
這本書給我很大的震撼
人類還有許多潛力是未經開發的
而且要觸及它們並不難
這本書也在我心中激起好幾個感覺
有些感覺還是相互衝突的
我想寫出來好好整理這些感受和信念

這個宇宙一直有很大的一部份是我不瞭解的
在我心中一直有一顆強烈的好奇心
想去認識這一個我所不瞭解的宇宙面向
這一個面向就是心靈的面向
總覺得宇宙有兩個
一個是外在的物質宇宙
另一個是內在的心靈宇宙
而它們又以某種方式連結

在Bengston的書裡
Bengston的好朋友也是老師Ben
有很強的心靈能力
比如說他可以讓雲朵散開
可以握著一樣東西就可以說出它的主人的故事
後來Ben還發現他還有療癒能力
他可以讓傷口愈合，讓癌症復原等等的
Bengston受的是科學的訓練
雖然直覺性的他很快的就接受了這些療癒的事實
可是理性的他會希望能以科學來證明它
於是他設計了一系列的科學實驗
給注射了癌細胞的小老鼠做Hands-On Healing
奇蹟式地，這些小老鼠都被療癒了
而且執行Hands-On Healing的研究生
都是完全不相信這Hands-On Healing這回事的
這些研究生所使用的是Bengston和Ben所開發的Image Cycling的方法
就是在腦海裡快速循環二十張圖片
這二十張圖片是你夢想得到的東西
所以它也是一個正面觀想
不過最主要的目的還是讓左腦有事情做
而右腦就可以放鬆地連接上療癒的能量
快速循環可以讓腦波的震動頻率提高
增加能量的循環
並啓動身體的自我療癒力

讀完這本書的時候我就發現了好幾個我
一個我完完全全的相信這是可能的
迫不及待的也想試試看
而且就是那麼直覺的篤定的相信
另一個我覺得那是因為Bengston和Ben都有很強的心靈能力吧，他們做得到的，我不一定可以，我沒有這樣的能力
第三個我，那個從小受科學訓練的我覺得，別人會覺得你瘋了
看見這幾個面向的自己時，我覺得很好笑
真的，全世界都住在自己心裡面

這本書很讓我感動的是Bengston的堅持，並默默地推動著這一個可能。對我而言那是一個拓展，宇宙的帷幕又更加寬大深遠一些了。

書裡我最喜歡的一段話：
"My mind moves past my cycling images and the life they describe, into super consciousness and a sense of higher intelligence, then past that into peace, and past that into Nothingness -- a place of pure potential where all possibilities exist at the same time. The higher I go, the less I feel. The Source doesn't do anything. It just is.

Perhaps by touching the Source I can give my patients what they need to heal, because the source offers an infinite number of simultaneous existences transcending time and space. Perhaps there's a place where you crushed your finger, and a place where you did not; there's a place where the finger heals, and a place where it does not. These places are probably very close to each other, so if we act quickly before your thoughts have had a chance to harden around a negative reality, maybe we can make it back together to the non crushed-finger time. With negative belief, you are shutting down possibilities that you might not have known existed. I am trying to open you up to a wider spectrum of alternatives.

With conditions that develop slowly, like some cancers, the task may be to reverse the procedure through a series of existences during which the cancer diminishes into nonexistence. Perhaps this means moving forward in time or perhaps it means moving back, because inside the Source present, past and future are without distinction.

...when I am treating you, what I think of as my consciousness and what you think of as yours may be traveling through concurrent existences together. If mine is an experienced traveler, perhaps I can nudge yours into a place where your body would prefer to be - a place where you live and not where you die. You may think I am changing something physical in you the way a doctor would, but maybe you get better because I take you to the right place, like transporting an asthmatic patient to a climate that ameliorates that condition."

冬夜

冬季最長的黑夜
窗外靜靜地飄著白雪
明天太陽升起
又是一地的純白了吧

這個夜晚
情緒似乎沒來由地
降到了最底點
一如溫度與光線
降到了最低點

靜靜的和自己在一起
我們就在山谷底下看雪花飄落吧
也許點燃一根蠟燭
有些許的光亮與溫暖

最近學到的一個觀念是Cognitive Dissonance, 認知失調
發生在當人們在做的事情不符合他們現有的認知
我發現自己常常處在這樣的狀況裏
當自己跟隨著內我的衝動去完成一件事情
而把自己帶到一個新的狀態時
自我意識的自己
會進入認知失調，覺得不安全，危險、害怕
於是我來到了一個選擇的狀態
自我意識想退縮回去
內我意識會說前進是安全的
拿開那個信念吧

那個失調的感覺並不好受
感受著其中的衝突與掙扎
然後我就覺得累了
忽然也就放下了那個掙扎
回到自己
回到安靜
回到心的深谷
讓自我意識療癒了
自然就有了前進的力量吧
我的感覺告訴我
我還沒有準備好

其實我們哪裡也不用去
更重要的是回來整合自己，陪伴自己
自我意識於是就放鬆下來了
黑夜感覺不那麼黑暗了
雪花靜靜的飄落
仿佛帶著療癒的音符

經過了冬天最長的夜晚
我好像又瞭解自己多一些了

與宇宙的約定

瞭解自己是一條走不完的路
卻是越走越寬大有趣的路

有一天
我會遇見我和宇宙的約定嗎?

"The integrity of any intuitive information depends upon the inner integrity of the person who receives it. Expansion of consciousness, therefore, requires honest self-appraisal, an awareness of one's own beliefs and prejudices.

"It brings a gift and a responsibility.

"All who wish to look within themselves, to find their own answers, to encounter their own 'appointment with the universe,' should therefore become well acquainted with the intimate workings of their own personality."

Seth Speaks, Session 596

改變

很喜歡Bashar關於改變的這一篇, 關於人為什麼是有力量的：

每個人都有自己的能量，而你唯一能經歷任何事情的方式就是調整到那相同的振動頻率。 假如你不再同意調整到恐懼的頻率，那麼你將不再會在生命裡經驗到恐懼的作用。對那個頻率而言，你將是隱形的。 即便有人對你有負面的意圖， 那樣的能量頻率也無法觸碰到你。你可以改變你的振動頻率到一個更代表你所喜歡的實相的頻率而讓自己對原來的頻率變成是隱形的。你將不再感覺到那些負面的效應，因為你不再同意去反映那些振動。

所有負面的影響可以在瞬間改變。。。

所有的改變都是瞬間與完全的，但是你可以創造改變是慢與小的幻覺。你每次改變任何一件事情的時候，你其實改變了所有的事情。但因為你只把所有事情改變成與之前非常相似的版本，所以你認為事情沒有改變。事實上，整個宇宙都改變了。所以當你開始看見自己，並以另一種方式去改變的時候～要暸解你每次改變任何東西，你就是一個全然不同的人。然後你就可以去定義你要成為什麼樣的人，任何你所選擇的定義都是真實的，並將會是你經驗實相的方式。即使你還看著其他人在做你不想再做的事，這並不代表他們能對你有任何影響～假若你不選擇被影響的話。。。

當你決定沒有什麼是可怕的，只有正面的事情可以為你呈現，你將能以最正面的方式去經歷生命中的任何事情。所以你為什麼還在乎發生什麼呢，假如它在你生命中唯一能有的效應是正面的？為什麼呢？ 因為這是你選擇的，沒有任何人能抵觸對你而言是真實的東西。 這就是你可以用來創造的力量。要暸解，這並不是負面的～你被給予的最大的禮物就是生命根本上是無意義的。它並沒有內建的，自動的意義。你被創造，被設計去給予生命意義，這樣你所給予的意義也就是你從它那兒得到的結果。沒有你給予它意義，它就只是一個中立的道具，一個中立的經驗，一個中立的環境。當你有意識或無意識的，正面或負面的，給予它意義的剎那，它就確實地反映回來給你。它只是一面鏡子，一面中立的鏡子。假如你看著一面鏡子，你看見你的影像，你看見你的臉，你看見一張愁眉苦臉，你不會走到鏡子裡去嘗試改變鏡子裡的影像。它不是那樣運作的。裡面沒有東西。所有的光現都反射回到你。但是假如你決定要笑，鏡子將會回笑～因為它沒有選擇，它沒有自己的心智。

Bashar: The idea is that everyone is their own energy and the only way you can experience anything else is to match that frequency. If you no longer agree to match that frequency of fear, [for example] then you will no longer experience the effect of fear in your life. You will become invisible to that frequency. Even if someone actually has a negative intention toward you, you will become invisible to that frequency. You will become transparent to that frequency by changing your frequency to something more representative of the reality you prefer.  And, therefore, you will no longer feel any effect of that negative nature because you no longer agree to mirror or match those vibrations. . . .
[However, if you do have the negative effects in your life.] You could change in the blink of an eye. .

Every change is actually instantaneous and total but you can create the illusion that change is slow and small. But, every single time you change anything you are actually changing everything. But when you change, you are changing everything to such a similar version of the last thing that you barely think anything has changed, when, in fact, the entire universe has changed. So when you begin to see yourself and change in a different way, know that you are a completely, literally, a different person every single time you change anything.  Then you can decide to define who you are as that person and whatever definition you decide is true, will be the way you experience your reality. Even if you can still observe others doing what you do not prefer, doesn’t mean they have to have any effect on you whatsoever if you don’t choose to be affected. . .

[When you decide there is nothing to fear and only positives can manifest for you, it] Will allow you to experience anything in life in the most positive way possible. So why would you care what happens if the only effect it can have on your life is a positive one? I don’t mean this in a negative way but you get to the point where you don’t care what happens. It doesn’t matter what happens because you know that anything that happens will only have a positive effect in your life. Why? Because that is what you choose. There is no one to contradict you. No one in existence can contradict what you say is true for you. That is the power you have for creation. Understand, I don’t mean this in a negative way. The greatest gift you have been given is that life is fundamentally meaningless. It doesn’t have built in automatic meaning. You were created, you were designed to give meaning to life so the meaning you give it is the effect you get from it. Without you giving meaning into it, there will be absolutely no automatic meaning at all. It will be a neutral prop, a neutral experience, a neutral environment. The second, the instant, you give it meaning consciously or unconsciously, positive or negative, that is exactly what gets reflected. It is just a mirror, a neutral mirror. If you look into a mirror you see your reflection in the mirror and you see your face, and see a frown, you don’t go into the mirror to try to change the reflection in the mirror to a smile. It doesn’t work that way. There is nothing there. All the light is bouncing back to you. But if you decide to smile, the mirror will smile back because it doesn’t have a choice. It doesn’t have a mind of its own. . .