筆記（3）

Searching for who you really are is getting  in touch with your inner Self and bringing passion and meaning into what you do in life.

~ Destiny of the Soul

夢想

昨天上Jonette channel的Mark的課
Mark要我們進入我們的夢想去感覺它
我發現我的夢想裡有我的印痕
讓我無法很深入的去碰觸它感受它
只是淺淺的飄過
在外圍環繞

Overachiever

When Mark adressed us as Overachiever in the class

The word made me feel uneasy

Because it had touched on some truth in me that I did not like 

I sensed that Mark wanted us to be the best that we are

But not aiming at achievement 

Over achieving means doing too much to gain a certain approval status

only because we feel that we don't have it now

He wanted us to feel the wholeness of ourselves at any given moment

so that we can be in tune with the vibration of the universe that is whole

and everything else will fall into place

As an overachiever I always feel that I have not attained what I need to be

There is always a lack and therefore the need to go over

A good performer on the other hand is free to perform the best of himself

Much to excel in the creative flow but nothing to achieve

The universe did not ask as much of ourselves than we do to ourselves

All that it asked for us is to bath in the field of blessing

know that all is being taken care of

flow with it, allow all things to happen

and become the true self that we are

But how can I be whole and fully immerse in the field of blessing and bliss

when there is still pain, sorrow and incompleteness inside me and around me?

When the field of blessing closed in

I had no choice but to surrender

I realized, as whole it encompassed incompleteness, pain and sorrow too

When the weight was lifted

I found these wounds to be lessons that allowed me to grow and unfold

A challenge is always here to guide us and train us, not to defeat us

And blessing is always shinning upon us whether we realize it or not

筆記（2）

Gershen Kaufman has written that "shame is a kind of soul murder." One of Ray's issue is the handling of shame.  Shame brings a numbness to our minds because it urshers in feelings of nonacceptance, of being no good and having no validity.  It may be so overpowering as to preclude any soul progress in a human mind that has shut down.  However, Ray is an unusually determined soul who, as we have seen, won't give up these hard lives for an occasional rest.  He grows stronger by building on each hard life.

~ Destiny of the soul.

筆記 （1）

Each life is a piece of fabric which makes up the whole tapestry of our existence.  If a family member or friend is harsh and uncompromising, or perhaps weak and emotionally distant toward us in life, we are only seeing an external portion of the entire true character of that soul.  Role assignments in life all have purpose.  If you grew up with a particularly difficult parent, as Ray did with Carl, ask yourself this question: What did I learn at the hands of this person that has given me wisdom I would not possess if he or she had never been in my life

~ Destiny of the soul, Michael Newton.

歸屬

我的個性裡一直有個「破」的內在行動

很難在一個宗教、一個信仰、一個思想裏安住

一方面得習慣於

那種沒有歸屬的漂泊感

一方面卻也覺得

在所有分界的外圍

我們原就是一體的

所以其實也很自然的

能融入了所有的思想、宗教、哲學、信仰

只是在分界裏又喜歡一種沒有分界的開放性

真假

對於冥想與回溯的經驗

有好一段時間我一直徘徊在

那是真實還是虛假的兩極當中

那更深的感覺是

假如那只是自己的想像

那就完全沒有意義了

更有趣的問題其實是

為什麼是自己的想像就沒有意義了

所以我的信念是

想像是沒有意義的

回過頭來看

想像也好，象徵也好，真實經驗也好

甚至是書本上的知識

假如只是別人的

的確對自己是沒有意義的

因為那不是自己的體驗

除非它也觸動了你內在的真實

假如是自己的體驗

那麼不論是想像的、象徵性的、或真實的都很好

假如覺得自己的想像沒有意義

那至少因它認出了另外的真相

假如覺得象徵、經驗有意義

那麼也有了一些體驗

它是一個行動的完成

往下一個覺知的滾動

坑坑洞洞的路

我的求生本能總會希望

有一條平坦安全充滿光明的路

讓我輕鬆自在走在其上
往一個有意義的終點前進

面對生命的陰影、心理的坑洞

我總會帶著克服的心

希望趕快走過就算了

期待往後的平坦

靈魂卻告訴我

一路走來那條坑坑洞洞的路

正是我的路

所謂的生命藍圖

其實就記在那一個一個的坑洞裏

坦然接受　虛心面對
去了解體悟
轉化每一個坑洞
從洞裡站起來

就是道路

光先在心中亮了起來
才會看見周圍的光明

那一直在尋找的路
就是那一直在走的路

冥冥之中
在不屬於任何宗教
也屬於所有宗教的存在裡
一切萬有空淨卻真實的恩寵
撐起了這個世界
也給了我無限的信任
讓我自由的走在屬於自己的路上